Well, I guess I’m doing this. Starting up a blog. Why am I doing this? Well, there are a lot of reasons and it would take telling my life story to really explain all of then, but suffice to say I have been driven here from necessity. But hey, that’s not always a bad thing, right?
So why am I here, then?
Well, I want to start getting my voice and work out there more again. You see, for a long time, I viewed myself as something of a “recovering artist”. In my younger years I passionately pursued a degree in theatre through my undergraduate studies. After college, I less passionately attempted to build a career from that degree in what I found to be a very commercialized, bastardized version of the thing I had come to love. And I ran from it, all of it.
So then what?
Well, I hid for a while, not really sure why I was hiding, or from what. I just knew that I had lost something, something I desperately wanted back, but which I thought impossible to recover. I think a lot of people have felt this way. I’ve been reading a lot, lately – trying to get myself back into the habit, because I had really slipped out of it. In my reading, I’ve found myself returning to old favorites from my college years – Peter Brook’s The Empty Space, the works of Joseph Campbell, and the Sandman comics. I think we often realize, looking back, that we know ourselves better than we give ourselves credit for – we just aren’t paying enough attention to what we are doing. Why choose those books, what do they have in common?
Don’t worry, I’m answering that right away – Storytelling.
I am enthralled by the act of storytelling, and honestly I think you would be hard pressed to find someone that wasn’t. Really, it’s a matter of what kind of story you enjoy, but it seems to be a part of being human to love a story. It makes us feel like part of something, like you can reach other lives and other worlds, or like you aren’t alone in your struggles in life. And today, I think we are hungry for it. We’ve forgotten how important it is to us, and we stopped encouraging the creation of new stories, new myths for a new age – in an era that desperately needs to be defined by new art.
Everything is different now.
So, here I am, trying to get back in the game. It feels important to do so, not just because there is a need but also because, I realized, I need it. I need to try to do this. Maybe nobody will listen. But, just as there is a human need for stories, some members of the tribe have a driving need to tell those stories. When I saw what the world of theatre had become, I didn’t know what to do. I was young, and scared, and I didn’t understand then what I do now – I can’t run from that part of myself. I have to try.
So, even if nobody is listening, I’m going to start talking. Here I go.